avada kedavra

the empty mind full of lighters by ~kawako198

I don't really know what's going on anymore.

this is not real life.

i feel really bad now and not to mention guilty.
not to mention i realized how i blew my chance.

i would like for something to go perfectly just once this semester.

i really need that happy moment.

penguin

I'm not really sure what I should be doing.
And yet, something feels right.

maybe it has to do with the weather or the moon nearly full. Either way I have a good feeling about this weekend.

Titus' Inheritance by *PhillyBoyWonder

Halloween

I do not know how to play this game.
Well, play it well.
It's difficult, because the right words are hard to find.
Where as the wrong words are so easy to just let out.

Bad news by *duchesse-2-Guermante

Another week down. Time to figure out a strategy for this one.

[breakdown]

Breakdowns happen. Sometimes its completely unnecessary, other times its much needed.
I've learned that I cannot have them.
Not that I shouldn't, but I cannot afford to appear weak in front of my friends. And no it's not some stupid pride thing. My troubles are merely miniscule on the big plot of life. Getting upset over it just doesn't help anyone let alone get anything done.

You can piss me off.
You can treat me like a child.
You can kick me when I'm down.
You don't need to understand my life.
You can sit there and do nothing.
You can blame me for other peoples problems.

Do it.
But the one thing you CANNOT do, is tell me I'm not cut out for this. After all of this if there is one thing I know, it's that I can do my job and get it done.

So all I have to say is thank you.
I can find time to vent.
I know I'm not a child.
I know that if you kick, I'll kick back harder.
I know my life, and what's going on.
I can handle what's given to me.
I won't take the blame, I know where I stand and my feet are firmly planted.

This weekend allowed me to put into perspective what I'm doing.
You can hate on me all you want.
I will not break again.
I will show you that I can do this.

"Plan A" by =aoao2

Because if you think I cannot handle it. Well, I've got news for you world. I can care less.

bucket list.

.istanbul. by ~littlemiss-something

i feel like i'm just an item
getting checked off a list

one last thing to get done
before he graduates and leaves

i get to have some fun
but at the same time it sucks

instead of leaving me hanging
i would love something more


am i supposed to feel wanted?
because i don't know what to feel

leader the follow

i'm realizing where exactly i stand in the midst of things.
well sort of.
not really.
i'm responsible.
people turn to me if they need something.
i'm looked up to.
its weird, i never considered myself to be the leader type.
i was always the follower.
now i've grown up and its time for me to go my own path.
its time my game reflected that.

no country for old men by ~arbebuk

even though part of me wants to get up and run
i know i can't.
some people depend on me.
it's great to feel needed.

but still. i just want to do my own thing.

reality or a scattered dream

shaper of dreams by ~Sea-of-Ice

I had something to write in this blog post.
i don't remember what it was.
so it must not have been that important.