a thought without a bubble

Summer has been an exciting time.

this little light by ~illbewaiting

regardless of the fact that i am nearly broke( i say nearly because after this weekend i'm sure to be)
i'm also jobless, and not really doing much.

yet when i walked out side today to go pick up aly at 9:27 pm (if you know me i dislike the times between 9:00-10:59 weird i know. i think it has to do with high school. but idk anyway...) i felt like i was in the right place at the right time. everything just felt right.
maybe it was the fact i was watching an interesting show.
             or the fact i'm going on a mysterious (lol) trip tomorrow.
                              Or it could have been the pizza i just ate.
regardless of all those things, being outside just felt right. I had the odd and sudden urge to go play on a playground. Which got me thinking. What if i followed that urge. Was there something waiting for me at that playground? I'll never know because Aly takes so long to get ready.

Maybe I wasn't supposed to find out and me running to Jewel was what i was ment to do.

I'm a firm believer in everything happens for a reason. I believe that there are places and people we're supposed to meet. That our choices dictate how we get there.

i don't really know where i was going with this..  

OH WELL 

just felt like typing.

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The Visitor by *purplekecleon

        exactly what I'm drawing.
                      kinda how I'm feeling.
                                what's on my mind.

Confusion is not a form of physics.

I've never felt more confused about my feelings than I have in these past few weeks.

Falling for someone you cannot be around is just stupid. right?
 Am I falling for him?
           no.
                yes.
                      maybe.
                                  i don't know.
Maybe i'll be able to figure it out in august.

-Let Me Take You There- by *Peibee-an-Jay

 So much uncertainty.


Everything just felt so right just hanging out with him.
Which scares me and excites me, because I haven't felt like that in forever.
           Comfortable.
                               Its weird to think that i rarely feel comfortable around someone. Maybe i'll just make the most of this summer and see what happens

                                                                      

But he'll probably read this and think I'm a creep.             

                                                                                                                                      I think too much

Maybe i should just worry about what's for lunch

blast from a painful past

Facebook has a new feature where you can relive the past. Well in messages from every chat you've ever had.

I'm hurt and incredibly upset when I read them. It reminds me of a lot of bad that happened in high school and the people I hurt.

While it hurts to read and think about. It proves to me that I am a better person today, and shows me who my true friends are. Because even when I pushed her away she stuck to me like glue. Without her I'd never be the person I am today. Which when I think about it, it's a horrible thought. Because I'm so happy with who I am today and where I'm at in live that i wouldn't trade it for the world.

come here by *viria13

I'm sorry we never went to turnabout or prom together. I know now what a mistake I made. I only hurt you because I was afraid of what I felt for you. I did like you but I didn't want to admit it. That spark is still there, so when we're 40 and single. I'll propose to you. You are having my babies. <3

A falling rock? I see a shooting star.

I guess you could say I'm kind of a romantic. I can think of odd cute romantic couple things to do and 9 times out of 10 i think im being stupid because i know no one will ever do the same for me.

Knite Chapter 1 page 50 by `yuumei

Example. Looking up at the night sky. We may be apart but we see the same stars and moon so its like we're close.
Surprise late night picnic under the stars. It may be on the roof, near a campfire, or even in a field with twinkling fireflies.
Or say you really wanted to go to the dance but we couldn't afford the tickets? Id throw you our own dance in the living room.
Plan a nice date? Its difficult. I want to have the perfect date and im thinking of how i can make it special. Now i know dropping some serious cash doesn't mean its special. But i'm willing to go as far as that to make it one he'll never forget.

Dear Aly

This one's for you Kid.

Ain't nothin' but a thang. by *Sephiramy

   I too believe in fate. I believe that there are some things in life we are destined to go through, be it a small choice like eating toast in the morning. To loosing someone we love. These past week has taught me so much in the value of friendship that i couldn't even to begin to say how lucky i am. If you never messaged me and pushed me on to join theatre I know I wouldn't be at Syracuse. We never would have became friends. We would never have made notes on what schools you should go to. Hell I never would have even came out. You never would have introduced me to your awesome friends you've made like Krissy and Zach. Our lives would have been so different if we never met.

   I told you I'd buy you a new phone. You asked me why and  I never really gave you a good enough reason as to why I wanted to. But just know that these are the kind of things i think about. And they make me realize what a great person you are and how I'd probably stop functioning if you weren't there. Hell sometimes I'm jealous of you.

   I cannot wait til we're done with college and can go live in Colorado or somewhere fun.
   Cuz we're two fly mother fuckers in a world of misunderstanding people.

So thanks.

This is Aly On Ryan's Blog

Ryan doesn't know I'm making this post.

Dear Ryan,
Let me start off by saying that I really love you. We have been through a lot together... or should I say against each other?

We have had so many fights that it would get to the point where I'm sure both of us would wonder if this friendship is even worth it. Coming to the point we are at right now I would say yes. It was absolutely worth it. We have gone through so many changes both from our experiences together and from our time apart. If you took the pair of us from say four years ago and put them side by side with us today... it would just be nuts, man!

I want you to know that I'm always going to be there for you.
Doesn't matter if your significant other is a shit head or if you're throwing up/crying. I'm going to be right by your side and help you out in whatever way I can.

So now you're 21 years old and we're at your birthday party. You're playing pool with your cousins and rob. We are all hungry and whenever you walk over here I pretend I'm on facebook.

Love you always and forever. 

Keep on truckin',
Aly

21

Today's the day.
I am now 21 years old. WOOOT.
There is so much excitement i can't even contain myself.

light surrounding you by ~illbewaiting

feelin' good.

after picking up aly i feel different.
i'm not sure if its from what i did this weekend.
or who i met or who i was with.

Little Hero - Story by ~patrick-q

but its a good different.
like confidence.
i feel better about myself and i'm ready to take on my birthday.

Wild and Crazy

I had a fun filled crazy ass weekend.
i kid you not.
i've done things i never thought i would.
i was able to do something that i wanted to do for a while now.
i've made new friends.
i even got to partake in some fun random ass vandalism.
these past five days were the most fun i've had in a long time.

Water Balloons by *purplekecleon

so thanks guys. i can't wait to have more fun this summer.

<3