[standby] distraction.

I don't know what words I
want to put down. But I figured if I start typing maybe they'll find their way to the page.

The Ocean Sky by ~desmondWOOT

It's been a really rough week and I don't even know why.

I keep messing up at work, with no reason behind it. I wish i had even the slightest excuse but there is none. It's giving me a serious case of self doubt, and just leading to more problems than I would like.

Nothing is helping really. My roommate's been an ear to listen, which is great, but at the same time he probably thinks I'm making a bigger deal out of this than it needs to be. Which granted, I probably am.

Then there are things I want to talk about, but not with anyone I know. For some reason I just don't trust anyone, not even you dear reader, with this information. Part of me feels like if i just ignore it, it'll go away. Not needed for discussion or anything. At the same time, it's a feeling I don't want to lose of give up on. People bring it up with me, unknowingly and vaguely, but it has been brought up.

There is a part of me that wants to tell Zach, he above everyone else has a right to know. We haven't talked in so long, and I don't know if I want written evidence of what I have to say. Still leaving me in a bind.

never realized blogger had a labels limit. i went way over and had to cut back. #roughtimes

things you should know....

i like the word "twitter" said in a british accent
I dig harry potter.
grammar teamed up with spelling to become my arch enemies.
I'm a sucker for cheesy phrases like gee wilikers (sp?)
i like romantic stuff.
i'm a comedy person.
i like your face.
ok maybe that last one was a lie..
i like to tell lies. mostly white lies.
          why are little lies called white lies?
                  what happens when its big? is it cyan?
lying to see someone's reaction is priceless... and also called a joke
i worry about what people think about me sometimes
i like to read gay fiction
i like super heroes
i get it
i like my friends
i'm with the in crowd
     i'm not but i like to believe that.
i'm with the out crowd (i thought this was clever)
Domo-san is mi amigo (whats wrong with that sentence?)
being different is something i take pride in (most of the time)
being weird is how i do.
i tend to wear my heart on my sleeve
normal is something i don't strive to be
trampolines are the bee's knees
            do bee's have knees?
I like who i've become
i can tell it like it is
i can walk a walk and talk like a midwesterner
climbing is fun.
risky adventures are something i crave
along with white castle every now and then. like now. damn.
i try to make lists but only get as far as writing pro and con.
tarrot cards are pretty baller. but i will not use them to ask about a specific person i'm interested in (ask me why! haha jk don't do that)
successfully brought salty back for a week.
created a tradition that still holds at my high school ( need a pin! DOCTOR PHIL oh wait jk OPRAH)
procrastination should be my middle name
as long as it's hyphenated with awesome-awkward-pro-risky-adventurous-danger
I'm not very good at blogging, but that doesn't stop me
i can be a hypocrite
can't touch my toes
i'm really hungry. make me a pizza?