a foolish april

what a lame day today was. it was super cold outside, after a glorious weekend of 50 degree weather.
I got no work done.
I got emails about updates on the work that i've yet to complete.

The boy who loved heights by =nuriko-kun

I just feel a little lost.

I'm still struggling with the idea of moving to NYC.
I'm worried about finding design work.
I'm worried about having a job. income. taxes. all grown up stuff.


Being at home right now feels like summer vacation. only without the perks of friends and warm weather. Which I think is a leading factor into my laziness. Old habits die hard.

artistic stile

i've done some thinking. after a few days of panic and laziness, i've set up some reasonable goals and timelines for myself.

which may help me figure out where i want to be a year from now.
-i'm going to sketch everyday. something personal/ not work related
-go to the gym everyday. i want to look awesome this summer
-teach myself new techniques in painting.
-start making my comics again.
-just make the art like that which i'm inspired by. so i can stop wishing i could be more like that person, and actually get creative.
-spend more time downtown. out of the house even, but downtown is so much cooler than irwin park. lemme tell you.
-attempt to blog at least 5 times a week (i'd say everyday, but we've seen how well that's worked out)

it's fool proof! (even if I may revert to my old ways in like a week. here's hoping i don't)

and one day i'll score someone like stiles.

a boy can dream can't he?

a weighty outlook

I go to the gym now. AND I have a personal trainer. I told her my goal is to look like an abrercrombie model by summer.

Clearly not me, they're also Hollister Models, but it's still my goal body

 According to my trainer, I'm stronger and my arms look bigger. well would you look at that. looks like I'm accomplishing one of my resolutions.

She also asked me today if my friends are noticing. I laughed and said i don't have friends.  "So you wake up, come to the gym and then go home to be a hermit?" YUP basically. Then she said she'd hang out with me.  Isn't that nice. I feel like it would be weird. who knows. I just giggled and continued doing weight lifty stuff.